I have the week off from school this week- Spring Break. This should be good. It is in a way, but any disruption in my schedule is difficult for me to handle. We are staying on the North Shore this week, and I am attempting to do some adventures with the kids. The results have been mixed. I left this morning around 9:00 AM to go see my new therapist for the second time. I really like her. She tells me to keep doing what I have been doing. She says that I have been doing a good job.
I picked up a friend for my son, and I drove back over. I should be fine, but I am feeling anxious. My brother and mom are working on the new deck. I asked if I could hold the post, and they told me not to worry about it. This caused my thoughts to spiral. I am seen as as lazy, not a hard worker, etc. Even though I just met with my therapist, and I just took my second dose of anti anxiety meds, I still feel anxious. It is the worst feeling. I told myself that I am going to write for at least 10 minutes. Then I'm going to go back into the world and try to interact. It shouldn't be that difficult (should it) to make it to dinner time, should it? I go to bed early, or at least I can shut myself up in my room early. That should help. Argggghhhh!
